To Understand: To Design: To Build: To Produce: To Sell: To Spend: To Admire:
These are the keys to my happiness. To expect more from my life would be insanity.
Before I understood the keys to my happiness, I was handed a puzzle to solve.
A mystical, bi-polar god wanted to bless and curse me at the same time. The puzzle was to figure out "why." Like a brain hand grenade, once the pin was pulled, I could not put the puzzle down or I would always be cursed and never blessed. Now conscience of the puzzle, I must pull the pin on this puzzle because the lithium deficient god created it and because I owed him, it was my duty to throw myself on this mental explosive.
If I refused to kneel to the wishes of this entity, I would be forced to play.
There was only one simple rule for the puzzle. While pursuing the incomprehensible, I was to sacrifice something. The price of the sacrifice was up to the people who handed me the puzzle.
It took me 17 years to figure out the answer to that shell game.
Don't play!
It takes an unmeasurable amount of courage to break through the false puzzles given by others. This is why the con-game of mysticism persist to this day.
With copious amounts of heartache, soul searching, and deprogramming, I have finally become comfortable with the concept that "I" am God of my life.
With great power comes great responsibility.
My values and happiness are "My" responsibility. It is not my wife's responsibility. It is not my step-children's. It is not my parents. It is not my friends. It is not some supernatural bipolar entity's. It is mine alone.
It is also my responsibility to live within the walls of my environment.
To do so, I must understand my world. I must design a path through it. I must build a life with those of my choosing. I must produce to live. I must sell my thoughts. I must spend to buy the thoughts of others. I must admire the interaction of myself within the entire process.
